And I bid farewell to my lover…….
I was married at 21 to a rich and flamboyant businessman who lived for himself. I became mother of a girl at 22. I was divorced at 28.
I was distressed, hurt, betrayed, abused, helpless and lonely.
I was caught by a message on FB one night, contacted and connected. A man who was in the similar state, dejected, wounded, insecure and lonely.
We laughed and cried , traveled and stayed, shared and cared.
We lived every moment and one day he just vanished……
I looked for him, called him, messaged him, I realized I didn’t know anything or anyone beyond he told me, never cared to ask more, never doubted to enquire extra, he simply vanished….
Once again I was distressed, hurt, betrayed, abused, helpless and lonely.
At midnight while I was still awake killing my time watching TV, Youtube and chatting all simultaneously, a doorbell rang.
He was standing right in front of me, eyes low, smile on face. He seemed weak and exhausted.
The day he gathered about his kidneys failure he did not have heart to share with me and he just left to his hometown, Bhuvneshwar. He was hospitalized, on dialysis and was donated a kidney from his mother. He couldn’t live without me, the guilt, the memories shared pulled him back to me.
I was surprised on my self, that all these months I was so angry with him and today, as if there was no complaint, I was happy to see him back, hold him, feel him and live with him again. Yes, I was in love with him……
Its been five years, we married without our parents’ consent as they didn’t want me to be hurt again, yet we chose to be together, as couples but staying separately. He loved my daughter, she found a father in him, I found my companion, we laughed, cried, traveled all together. Sometimes we would fight to ward off evil eye of ours to our love.
Yes, it was just simple, honest, flowing and the Perfect.
He was hospitalized again in emergency in the AIIMS that night. I reached and held his hand, looked into his eyes, smiled and I left…..
In the early morning he breathed his last.
He told me to see him off smilingly to receive him again in next birth, till then he would heal himself to be my life partner and live happy and healthy life in full throttle.
Yes, I shall be with him again and we will love, care , travel, laugh and cry together and sometimes will fight too to ward off our evil eye from our love….
